Love and Marriage

Today is a normal crazy day in our house. We had a great play date this morning where I realized that play dates are a MUST in stay at home mom's lives. Why do I not do these more often? We then went to Lunch Bunch which is a group of us mom's and our kids get together once a month to have lunch and let the kids get to know each other. It is always a great and sometimes stressful time but we are all in it together with the screaming, spilling of drinks, and just overall noisiness of it all. Then I had to pick my husband up and go get my military id renewed because the Air Force won't let me do it by myself. This process usually takes FOREVER but today we were in and out and I felt oh so very lucky. Then in my effort to not give the kids a nap since it was 2:30 by the time we were leaving base, I decided to bake with them. As I drove to Kroger I looked into the backseat and realized that both my 2 and 3 year old munchkins were sleeping soundly. I turned the car around and put them in bed and am now relishing in the quiet until I have to wake them up so they will go to bed at a decent hour.

I tell you all of this because I want to relay to you that this is an ordinary day in our house and yet I find myself thinking of things that made me want to write a blog to begin with. I am inspired, and it actually came at a time when I have a few minutes to sit down and type out my thoughts! YAY!

Today the topic is marriage. I have been married a very short 5 1/2 years. I realize that this is nothing...its like 5 minutes to lots of you and yet to me, its forever. I can hardly remember the us we used to be. Our lives now center around the kids, the house, the bills, the dogs, the Air Force which is more like a family member than a career. Sometimes I miss those tingly feelings I used to get when I knew Stephen was coming to town. I was anxious, and always counting down the minutes until he arrived, or if I was going to see him, those last 30 miles just seemed to take FOREVER to cover. Now, it seems that we pass each other in the hallway between dinner and bedtime and absolutely NEVER go to bed at the same time. (We need to work on that last one) Today I found myself in a rare moment as we were sitting in the car waiting the 12 minutes it takes Parker to chose a toy out of the floorboard and then buckle himself in the car seat, in that moment, I saw the young guy I feel in love with. The one who I tried so desperately not to fall in love with and failed miserably. Then, I felt this longing for those feelings, I missed him, I missed us, I drove halfway to Kroger and back thinking of how I missed the feelings that used to come from the very thought of being near him. It kind of made me sad like, is that gone forever? That totally stinks. It came to me though, that I miss it because we don't have the time to put into our relationship that we used to. I miss the alone time and the conversations without interruptions. I know now that its when you DON'T miss it that you have something to worry about. I know that we will have our time when the kids are older and we aren't as busy to do the things we used to love. And in the meantime, I feel overcome with thankfulness, at the blessings that God has given me. I am still completely in love with my husband and still find him extremely adorable. I have the most adorable kids in the entire world and the problems that I see in our lives are pretty much just issues I need to fix within myself.

I hope this resonates with some of my followers! Thanks for reading, stop by again for some more tales of peeing in public and saying inappropriate things at the complete wrong time. Those happen more than these moments of deep inspiring thought!

Ciao,
Debbi/Leigh
(So, i've been watching the Real Housewives of New Jersey and they've been in Paris, I find myself saying "Ciao" and wanting pasta)